Things have changed. Changed after 12 April.

Looking at myself in the mirror. Wondering why I'm so pathetic.
Get a life SIJIA! Stop crying. Stop worrying about every little thing. Stop thinking about useless things. Get a life. Do what you want. You want to help other people. But how do you help if you are so pessimistic yourself?
Keep yourself busy! Busy! With what? I dunno. Make more friends. How do I do that? Everybody's so busy doing their things. Where are my friends?

SMILE :) Just Smile and everything will be okay!

Will someone just talk to me
I just hope there's someone at home with me.
Talk to me.

Why is it so bored to stay at home. I do not want school to start either. I hate everything!!!
I hate crying alone at home and you can tell no one. It definitely sucks. Mood swing is here again.
Why is it that I can do it for you and you can't do it for me? Why is it that we're like talking but we're not really talking? Why is it that I am always sad? Why is it that there's always something to make me angry once a day? Why is it that my life is so plain. Why is it that everything just doesnt feel right? Why am I always going to the same place only when Singapore is not that small actually? My life is only Choachukang, Sengkang, Clementi, Redhill? Why is it that my friends are all so busy? When can we ever meet up? When?! Why is it more than a year since I've gone to the beach no matter how many times I say it? Why is school so difficult n far? Why am I always broke? Why is it I don't feel ur support sometimes? Why am I only facing the four walls? Why are happy songs not cheering me up? Why am I so emotional and sensitive? Why do you talk without thinking? Why are you making him sad? Why can't I help? Why am I always in so much pain? What's wrong with my stomach? Where are the gdnight msges? GONE? Why are there so many WHYS?

OK JUST LET ME DIE.
Maybe I just lack that quality.

No one cares about how I feel.
No one.

I miss you a lot right now though I just saw you less than 2 hours ago.. Yeah I miss you the moment I am away from you. It's true. I just can't stop thinking about you. ><
Went swimming with darling just now. Swim swim swim! Love swimming :D

Love swimming with darling~ We exercise and have fun at the same time.
Absolutely enjoy wrestling with you in the water LOL your face looks so funny when you are so determined to defeat me :X
I love to play the tickling game with u too. We have so much fun together all the time. =)
But sometimes it really hurts okay!! haha.

I'm not being hua chi here. Just wanna say.
Darling, you kinda look like a bad boy sometimes but actually, you are such a sweet boy. Not boy, MAN. :D So caring, so filial, so adorable. You always smile it over when I ask you stupid questions all the time.

You give me a strong sense of security because I know I can depend on you(not all the time of course). I have to be independent too. You have such a muscular body and strong arms!! Tanned skin! Love leaning on your chest so nice. You just look so good all the time. Love the way you always hold on to me because I'm so blur and clueless sometimes ..

You make me feel loved. You make me melt. You have a cheeky smile :) Your eyes are small but do you know that your eyelashes are actually quite long? I bet you don't! Love looking at you sleep. You are always so natural around me. And that is why I love you with my whole heart.


AND I AM FREAKING HAPPY THAT WE ARE GOING BATAM TOGETHER SOOON!!! ~~~~~
I love you ;)
my fat lips hehe

I admit I am very sensitive. The little things people say could affect me badly.
I've not enough self confidence. Thats really bad I know. I am trying.

I just want you to know.
I don't expect anything from you. I just want to be with you always.

Sometimes, I just don't feel good enough.
People always say " Be more confident! You can do it!".
Well, it isn't as easy as you think it is. One little comment crushes my confidence.
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